Ironically coming to terms with being pedo and zoo, has also helped me come to terms with my attraction to females. I love men, and also women, just not adult human women (usually)
I knew I had the attraction to kids and animals for a while, but it was always with this kind of guilt and excuses I would tell myself “it’s just a story or a picture, it’s not real so it doesn’t really mean anything.” But eventually those sounded more and more hollow, a big portion of if it was that I was specifically attracted to female animals and kids, males to but to a lesser extent, where I only felt attraction towards other men. For a while I thought I was just getting off to the taboo aspect of it. Once I realized that wasn’t it I still had the idea that it was wrong, you always hear that these type of people are violent and rapists, which I am not. But after discovering this community and seeing that I wasn’t the only one with these attractions helped out tremendously. I always had a feeling that not every pedophile was a violent rapist, surely there must be people out there who don’t want to hurt kids. Seeing others like me helped me realize I wasn’t a freak for being attracted to little girls, and I shouldn’t be made to feel like one. No one should
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@Remejy Interesting, I'm glad posting helps. For me I noticed animals sexually after noticing people, I was attracted to boys, men, women, and girls, as a boy starting as young as 5. I was molested one time but it wasn't traumatic until years later when I started getting angry that I didn't get to have sex as a kid, because I felt those urges very young and they were never acknowledged by adults around me. As soon as I found porn I was so happy, it was like, my whole life I had been raised on a false dark religion, and then I found practitioners of "the sex" and suddenly I was filled with hope, the hope of what could be, that there was more to life than hymns and prayers.
@Jazzy_Butts see a combination of growing in a heavy Christian area, plus having very little access to any form of porn until I was around 18 probably didn’t help. Parents caught me looking at porn when I was around 12 (generic zoo stuff mostly ironically), so they didn’t let me use the internet unsupervised for a while, even when left along I was scared they would find out so I never looked anything up usually, having easy access to porn younger would have made things easier I think. That is gross, like the type of pedo we are always warned about. It sucks that he just tossed you aside once he was done. I was very sexually curious at a young age, I would have loved having a partner to explore those feelings and thoughts while growing up. Every kid should have the opportunity to explore their sexy freely
@Remejy The molesting wasn't violent or against my will, what was upsetting was that my molester discarded me after, avoided me, I would have much preferred he sucked my dick every while I sucked his. Tbh. Kind of gross that he just used me like he did, that's what's upsetting, if he had treated me with respect and kept on as a big brother figure who I could have sex with, we'd both probably have had better lives. AAMs and MAPs alike suffer from the consequences of draconian cult practices.