i hate having someone i get really close to who really like makes me feel understood and helps me accept being a pedo and stuff dissapear ;~; its only happened twice, and ive got so many other good friends but its rly miserable having ppl i was really close to just, decide they were wrong to talk to people like me and disappear. it feels rly gross when the ppl who made me accept myself just, out of nowhere reject all the stuff they helped me accept