A few days ago I showed my boyfriend some cute art I found that had a silver haired woman in it and he thought it was my OC and something I commissioned
felt kinda weird
She had big tits and didn't have the right eye color, and my OCs a crossdressing boy
Plus I think I've ranted to him about why the red eyes are important DEEP LORE
Somewhat related but it feels weird when people think my OC is meant to be "me"
Like, he's a self insert in the sense that when I commission art of him it's scenarios I would want to be in, and some of his personality traits are derived from my own
But I really don't identify with him beyond that, or see him as a persona of myself
Sometimes people refer to me by his name, and that always feels very strange
It's kind of odd because usually when people make OCs like this, or sonas, or whatever else, it's meant to be a representation of themselves, but for me it's just a character. Hell, I thought of his personality and character traits before I even thought of his appearance, and I didn't even design him with commissioning art in mind. I just ended up liking him a lot and a friend of mine commissioned some "fan art" of him, so I decided to get art of him.
Ironically I probably relate most closely with the OC I "hate" the most, just because he's basically an amalgamation of some things I hate about myself and poor life choices I've made. Which reminds me that I really need to get some art of him, but ref sheets are expensive as fuck and I still have a massive backlog of ideas I want to commission of the one OC I actually have gotten art of first. And I only had a handful of ideas in mind for him since he isn't exactly sexual
