@kazuma@rawr-xd.club I know. It's just, like- sunk cost, I guess. I could have close to a decade ago and didn't, and ever since I've felt like, "Well I fucked it up already, I'm stuck on this road now". I know that's stupid and irrational. I kept trying to tell myself it'll get better, but now I know for sure it'll never just "get better". I question whether or not it'd even help. That's what scares me the most, what if I do transition and still hate everything about myself, because I can never be cis. I don't want to be "trans", I just want to be a woman, and I can't.

But, thanks. Really, I appreciate it.