@Jabrosa14 Look at lesbian stuff that's like all about how you can be butch and hairy and date women and still be a woman or something, that's what would probably help me. Because being a transgirl who doesn't crossdress, is essentially what butch lesbian dykes are. They are women, they identify as women, everyone accepts them as women, but they do not conform to societal standards for womanly dress and behavior. They're probably pretty close to your kin.