I don't talk to other people, I just stay in my home all day long. It's been like this for years. You guys are all I got.
@opal I'm scared to, I'm scared of random events, and I'm scared of groups of normies
Just go outside and breath in the fresh air for a bit
@prouddegenerate @opal Ok just went into my front yard to breathe, I got anxious and went back in.
and this is coming from me, the king of being anxious and panicking
@opal @prouddegenerate I have the irrational fear that if I'm not under cover, I am exposed and vulnerable to attack, and that's too risky for me. I know normal people aren't like this, I know I used to not be like this.
@tarperfume @opal @prouddegenerate It changed after my ex threatened me with inprisonment and abandonment after I confessed to him that I was very depressed and didn't want to live anymore, and that I wanted help talking about these feelings. He started screaming, said "I've LOST people!!!", and then told me to "Get the fuck out". I was blindsided. I was shattered. And then I was filled with hate and anger, and the sense that no matter who I meet they will betray me.
@tarperfume @opal @prouddegenerate but the real final nail in the coffin was when my transgirl rebound gf made fun of me for having loli hentai and I was just like, you know what, done, go away, enjoy your life, I'm done with this shit.
