hopefully people fucked off so ill post some final meta before sinking myself into just writing code and doin something nice

whole situation to me has felt like

me: im going to go over and mingle with this social situation because i think the way you behave is incohere-
Everyone: Fuck off kill yourself
me: ok
me: ok im like the only person over here and i thin-
Everyone: Fuck off kill yourself
me: ok guess i wont talk about it
[comes up with an agreement of how to operate in this tense liminal space that everyone actually involved is into]
Everyone: Fuck off kill yourself how come you weren't issuing public bulletins about everything how come you dont handle this situation in the exact way we do
us: because it doesnt make sense and im questioning that
Everyone: Fuck off kill yourself
Everyone: You'll be sorry you can't be friends with us anymore
me: peanus'

idk how other people on here view them but defederations are consistently a relief so that i can be baited into explaining things to people always-already in disagreement as some sort of theatre to prove they were being diplomatic or w/e

i have to raise an eyebrow a bit at the people who i explicitly told all of this to, my thinking / rationale / intentions / goals and people i was working with and how i felt about them, only for them to then act publicly surprised and act like i've somehow not done this, but thats your prerogative i guess. noted

fr i dont know how ppls brains synthesize the position that ppl constantly proudly and explicitly say to me of "ive never spoken to these people and i never will because [transcendent axiomatic truth], kill them all" w/ profiles like "acab be gay do crimes etc etc" but its probably related to the phenomenon of people thinking if they say something ive heard 1,000 times but say it angrier and more condescendingly this time ill suddenly buy into it

anyway not that any of this matters and not that anyone bothers to read any of this