@AlienSkyler I have stuff in my head I feel like I'll get in trouble for like, that I didn't used to feel that way about. I was so free in my mind as a kid because I didn't understand fully, and the older I get the more troubling the reveries become because I'm seeing the context of what the adults were trying to do to me and THAT shit fucks with me, I can't imagine what king of monstrous person would fuck with a child like that but so, so many people did, family, teachers, church members, it's fucked. Children are emotionally mutilated at the whims of mentally ill adults and nobody is doing anything about it. People call it just life, and they say people are only human, but that's a load of shit, imagine if someone said that about a battered wife, or a rape victim, it wouldn't be accepted, it would be rejected. People can do better and they should do better, and I think it's happening socially but slowly. In the mean time lives are destroyed, potential is smashed, and then the person who was ruined is blamed for their failures, which compounds the suffering. It's like hell.