drinking wine to sleep zzz

@tarperfume i swear nothing puts me to sleep

even when weed makes me super tired my brain never makes that jump from conscious to sleep easily

@cummies :(
melatonin benzos alcohol weed, just, nothing huh

@tarperfume not tried benzos but even anticholinergics dont work all the time 😭

@cummies goddamn

benzos might they're like, hidden little beastly drugs

@tarperfume they terrify me lol

might try ambien someday

@cummies @tarperfume ambien is FUCKED UP

@animeirl @tarperfume how bad?

@cummies @tarperfume so while on it I have:

* gone wondering around town at in the middle of the night texting my ex until she freaked out enough to come pick me up
* vandalized my apartment by hot gluing stuff to the walls
* texted everyone I knew asking if they thought I was cute which is not that bad but kind of embarassing
* decided it was ok to overdose on another drug I was taking and then almost passing out on the sidewalk due to low blood pressure

Also my therapist said she has a friend who's husband died trying to climb into his apartment because he locked himself out while on it