I'm disgusted with the part of myself that fantasizes about paying a whore (where legal) to let me inflict emotional and physical pain on her. Safe and sane limits obviously. I just want to smack her in the face and tell her how worthless she is and make her cry. All consensually. Reason? I've been disrespected by multiple girls via them going out whoring to make a buck. I'd like to pay a whore back for that, whoop that ass, make her "learn", all legally agreed to beforehand in a place that's all legal. I'd like to fuck with her head and shake her perception of self. I'd like to leave her doubting her self and her profession. I don't always feel like this, it's just right now I feel this king of strongly. I've never had the heart for bdsm, but I've been involved in "the scene", I feel like if I was how I am now back then, I would have caned some bitches purple without a second thought, if that's what they say they want, whether I think they're just playing tough or not I would have whooped that ass and choked a bitch until the safe word. I give very little of a fuck for whores who disrespect themselves anymore. I pretend to, I honor the social agreement and treat others with respect no matter their profession, but I don't honestly think whoring is respectable, it's about as respectable as being an actor, or a politician, which is to say, not respectable at all, some actors, some politicians, some whores, raise above their profession and become respectable as individuals but it is not because of their job, but in spite of it. And so no, I do not respect whores, I respect people and so I respect them as people, but I do not respect their profession, if they are remarkable and honorable people DESPITE their profession, I will respect them, but still, I do not respect their profession. I would rather they spent their time more wisely. But if this is how they really want it, I would try my best to crack them, mentally, consensually, it would be very rewarding for me emotionally, it would give me a great sense of peace and control.