When I say I can't afford a therapist I mean I can't afford one that's worth a shit. And I want the therapist to be driving distance. I don't like online meetings. They feel soulless. It is hollow communication. I need to smell the other person in the room with me, I need to feel the air pressure change as they move. It's about trust, I trust you, you trust me, were in this room together, we could maim and cripple each other and there would be nothing the other could do to stop it. And so there's trust, we trust we won't do that, and we behave accordingly. That trust, when shown to be well placed, builds respect, that respect is the key to the mind, heart, and soul.