@Sudodeme I only like men who are willing to take the full place of a woman, without being annoying though, like no whining or stuff, not cute. But yea I don't really want men sexually to fill the role of a man in the relationship, I could tolerate him acting masc in public but when we're connecting as a couple the only way I'm going to be interested at all romantically is if he fulfils the role of "the female counterpart". He doesn't have to dress up or anything or even be curvy and hairless, he just needs to be submissive, like, I'm the boss. If I had a perfect girl and a perfect guy who were equal in all aspects it would be really hard but I think I'd pick the girl, or if there was one mind and I could put them in a female body or a male body, I think I'd pick female (even though vaginas are gross). I like feeling the female body more than the male body, and if I'm honest the male bodies only turn me on when I just tell myself "this is a girls body I'm touching actually", but really I just do that because I was raised to think fucking girls is ok but fucking guys is not so I do mental gymnastics.

tl;dr I think I use guys as a substitute for women, but that doesn't mean I can't love a guy romantically or be loyal to him