I'm fairly antisocial because I don't get along with most people and I'd rather not fight. People can make a light joke and if I'm not in a super good mood I'll either ignore them or jump down their throat and tell them they're worthless and stupid and then I'll bring up personal shit they said and criticize it...I haven't done that since that girl was mean to me because she didn't like that I have issues around polyamory. If I got a nickel for every time I blew up on a person for poking that soft spot I would have at least 3 nickels.
The worst is the double combo of light joke used to get past my defenses with a unsolicited criticism, that shit flips a switch in me and I just go off, my fight or flight kicks in because it reminds me of being in small rooms with a threatening person trying to convince me that I'm worthless and wrong.
