Ok I'm feeling a little less scared now that I had a good meal. It was a sandwich with the crusts cut off, and cut diagonally, and broccoli with butter, and some pretzels, and a strawberry daiquiri (but it was melted...still cold though). All homemade. I make my food boi. Feeling a little less paranoid...still a little scared though...maybe another daiquiri...
Was feeling like everyone hated me for a second there...
It's really fucked up the Dr. doesn't give me lolipops anymore. They act like they don't even want to treat me, they disgusted by my body and want me to die I think, they wish the rule of modern society didn't exist so they could refuse me even the pretense of treatment and tell me they hoped I died before I could breed. When you're a kid they think you're cute. You get a lollipop.
OH I FORGOT I WAS GONNA HAVE AN AFTER DINNER LOLIPOP :3