Ok I'm feeling a little less scared now that I had a good meal. It was a sandwich with the crusts cut off, and cut diagonally, and broccoli with butter, and some pretzels, and a strawberry daiquiri (but it was melted...still cold though). All homemade. I make my food boi. Feeling a little less paranoid...still a little scared though...maybe another daiquiri...
OH I FORGOT I WAS GONNA HAVE AN AFTER DINNER LOLIPOP :3
It's really fucked up the Dr. doesn't give me lolipops anymore. They act like they don't even want to treat me, they disgusted by my body and want me to die I think, they wish the rule of modern society didn't exist so they could refuse me even the pretense of treatment and tell me they hoped I died before I could breed. When you're a kid they think you're cute. You get a lollipop.