i wonder if i really do just have really fucking low empathy at all times and most of my desire to help the beings i care about and see them continue living is selfish
@turntechGodhead What exactly do you consider selfish about your motivation to help?
@Sniffler when i help people i tend to think things like "maybe theyll stop complaining if i help them" or "maybe theyll like me more if i help and ill gain more respect in this space" or shit like that. it feels like its all part of a very elaborate way to advance my own agenda and when i dont get love or respect or whatever i expected from helping i tend to get very upset because it feels like they violated our unspoken agreement
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@turntechGodhead @Sniffler I have had this exact sequence of thoughts before, and I still don't know what to do.
