I have to be a force for good again, I've been blackpilled as the kids like to call it. Back to positive Jazzy posting. No more doomsaying. No more fear and despair. I know it's hard, I know it's lonely, if you're as lonely and scared as me then you're VERY lonely and you're VERY scared. And if you're a young zoo or para you probably are living with so much fear and stress that you don't even realize it most of the time because that's what it was like for me. And if you're an older zoo or para, I want you to know we're not out of the game yet, I know the zoos betraying us was a big blow to our ability to trust and hope but let's not give up, let's ride this one out, ok? I'm here if you need to talk. And I hope you're there if I need to talk too, but it's not a requirement.