I think the reason I act like I act (commodifying people) is because I've been so hurt by so many I trusted. People have become archetypes to me, a person is just the specks of light that bounce off them, and by the time those get to my eye the person is no longer in that position. I've gotten very good at detaching. When someone starts to hurt me, I detatch and disengage. Some faggot was bothering me irl and I just ignored him, he didn't know me, he was gross, and he was pestering me just like my ex did. So what did I do? The old me would have told him off. The new me just ignores. These filthy bastards get off on causing distress, don't give them the satisfaction. Don't get caught up in their net trap, just ignore them, they are pathetic and will die without the attention you're giving them. Let them die.