I'm sorry for hating a part of myself internalized racism is wrong all parts of myself are good even the "black" (african origin) parts. And black people are NORMAL people and do not have "genetic predisposition" for learned behaviors, the disparity between blacks and whites is due to institutionalized racism and a long history of oppression and fetishization and demonization, black people can talk "white" and calm and nice and gentle just like whites, but all the media shows is black people who are acting like fools, wonder WHY THAT IS (it's institutionalized racism).