My mom is being mean to me you guys. She'll buy me food and help me with medication pickups but when it comes to emotional safety she's not it. She's literally stopped paying attention to me trauma dumping or info dumping mid sentence, break eye contact, no expression on her face, walk away, into another room, and vaguely say "I'm doing Y" and then shut the door. And my autistic ass doesn't understand what's going on so I try to keep talking to her and it hurts my voice to yell through a door and she's not even listening and I never realize until after and it hurts so much and I think about kms sometimes.