It’s been a while, since I took out the big guns.
I guess in a way, I’m a little afraid of them.
I’m not shining quite as I used to. I started again, but something else appeared. It’s not the trauma. That’s still there, but it’s healing. I think that now I’m worried about hurting someone else.
@Aco You have to take good care of yourself and dedicate yourself to helping others if you want to do no harm, self first then others, and always be on the lookout to learn from others, there's a lot of smart people out there you just have to get out of toxic medias and surround yourself with positivity. Literally watch every episode of mr rogers. And therapists can be creepy so be careful with them. And so can religious people.
@Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club I don’t know if there is a reasonable path for me to do no harm. My path has become one of a warrior, whether I like it or not. And even among those close to me, pain is likely inevitable. I’m not designed to do no harm. I’m the world’s most skilled bulldozer driver, doing surprisingly delicate and precise maneuvers with my blade. But at the end of the day, I’m still a bulldozer. And no matter how careful I am, I always end up causing pain. I always say the wrong thing. I simply work too close to the edge.
@Aco @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club purrhaps others are just getting too close to the blades.... tis only my perspective as an outsider of couwrse...
@deer @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club I appreciate you. I need someone like you, to defend me when I can’t defend myself. It’s an important perspective, the one defending me. But when I say it myself to create nuance, it just sounds jumbled and confusing, like I’m making excuses. It really helps to have someone else playing angel’s advocate. I can disagree with you to the extent I think the defense of me is wrong, and create the necessary nuance without having to say those parts myself.
@Aco @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club nod nod... i get that i do i do..
of course theres always gonna be little bits and pieces i dont know but i am only giving my truthful opinion and honestly just what i feel about the stuff u say..! unfortunately i feel like a laarrggeeee portion of the world rightnow does not navigate their lives with common sense... i hope that made sense... i thought i was sobering up but i was un fact not... but i love being high and talking because i get soo!! thinky and thoughtful...
@deer @Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club I don’t like the concept of common sense. I think that we just call the sense that we’re familiar with common. And we all treat what we see as familiar as if everyone else should see that too. Not to mention that common sense isn’t the same as good sense. I think a lot of genuinely common sense is just flat out wrong.
But I think I get what you mean. One of the things that is often left out of spaces like this is personal accountability for one’s own emotions. There’s good reason for that in a lot of ways, since there are many systems in place that are designed to pave over beings’ feelings with institution bulldozers. But I do think we’ve gotten away from the big picture. Everything is just about being comfortable. Ethics are only real to beings insofar as they benefit them and their friends, so it’s about collectively agreeing on avoiding accountability whenever possible.
I’m still going to try to do better. I can learn and prevent harm. Even if I’m not obligated to, and went above and beyond what most would have. But I do believe at the end of the day that I was very good. And more importantly, if everyone in the community keeps blaming me for how others get hurt on my blade, then it won’t matter. They’ll destroy me if it keeps happening.
@Aco @deer I think the core benefits are feelings, feelings are very important, they define our experiences. A person with no feelings, like if they had the parts of their brain that felt feelings was off, I think they would be unresponsive and drooling, I don't think they would have any reason to do anything at all because they would have no crashing waves driving the surf board that is their body through the course of life
@Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club @deer My version of utilitarianism comes down to suffering vs joy etc, which I don’t believe microorganisms experience. And even if they did I can hardly imagine a god blaming you for something beyond your control.
@Jazzy_Butts@gameliberty.club @deer I’m a utilitarian, so I can absolutely agree. Without feelings, there is no purpose. But I’m for what I call “universal subjective wellbeing.” And you have to calculate not only how your asking for comfort affects the comfort of others, but also how it will cascade into affecting the wellbeing of those in the future. Leftist ethics have ironically become too self-serving. They’re not about doing the right thing, they’re about trying to carve out your own piece of paradise in the now so you can just live peacefully in it until you die. And the rest of the world just rots.