Maybe my begging for a gfbf is performative and I don't realize it?? I want a VIRTUAL bfgf but I'm too scared and feel like too much of a loser like I'm gonna cry that I'm scared to try to date anyone irl. I'm trying to clean my house now but I have fatige from non-transmitable illness. I'm trying so hard but I'm alone and I'm scared to even try and I'm such a loser nobody even wants to be my virtual romance pal who says nice things to me and I say nice things to them like every day...