I hate the word polyamory because of trauma but I love the idea of friends with benefits in a respectful setting with communication because that's a bunch of people who respect each other's agency and autonomy and they're not all glomed into one cult like group where they're all minding each other's business they're just friends with benefits, way better than polyamory which creeps me out because like I said I have trauma my ex is polyamorous and they were one of the biggest manipulative subtle abusers I've ever met in my entire life /vent