I think I finally understand women complaining about getting too much attention. It is impossible to describe how it is feel to have the exact opposite of the near universal problem.

But: I fucking love my job. I love it so much, that I am almost constantly afraid of loosing it. And this feeling has not ceased even after half an year.

But... I cannot talk about it. Whoever wants to talk to me about my job keeps asking me, about what is bad about it. Well, the fear of loosing it... Noone wants to hear that.