@kekservative
No, I am not exactly ok.
To finish my university, all I have to do is 2 tasks.
1) final test
2) write a bachelor's thesis.
And I have been postponing the batchelors thesis for the last 2 years. I can no longer even think about the topic. Whenever I want to continue, a flashback of all the wasted time in school (since primary school, 18 years, 100 hours a week, 80 percent wasted on shit that everyone knows is useless), and I feel like if I open the damn file, that nightmare will never end.
lol that's not existential dread, that's just life regrets. Wait until you're 40, you'll have lots of those about number of things.
As for homework, just schedule it. Set time to sit down and start, it'll go easy after.