hi, fedi.. i’m sorry for being quiet. life feels really weird lately.

i’m not feeling well today.. maybe getting a cold or covid or something. dizzy and head is pounding and cough and sore throat. my whole body is achey and feels stiff. cold. have the space heater plugged in.

i feel a lot of anxiety and uncertainty about what is going to happen with my job and stuff. truthfully, i am scared. i can’t quite explain why. i guess life goes on anyway. i feel like sometimes i am barely holding this life together at the seams, and if something changes, it’s all just going to unravel and go to shit.

feel so out of it today. will keep drinking my mint tea. i’m sorry for not updating or being social. i am disappointing real life people even worse. it feels hard to find the mental energy.