Do you ever just wish you could go back to the mid 2010s when things were better, when the future still had some potential, and you got through with cool friends online and interesting art?
I sure do sometimes. The internet friends and communities are long since gone, so I sometimes cling to the past and hope it ends differently next time.
(Dell m4800, i7-4910mq, k2100m, 16gb ram, 1tb 7200rpm HDD, win10 22h2, on a workbench/study table I'm clearing off)
@sendpaws Needs Windows 7, and every single game you have on Steam with a shortcut on the desktop.
But yeah I feel like I have spent the past 10 or so years chasing the same kind of close-knit group I had before that, before everyone kind of just went their separate ways. But people are too touchy, I'm too touchy too, and everyone just wants to get high and be by themselves while occasionally sharing memes and porn. It's frustrating. And I think I've been constantly searching for a perfect social connection with a group that will never exist, and now I don't even really have super focused interests anymore like I did in my teens and early 20's because I've just been by myself for the most part.
I think the closest I came to that breakthrough was having a group of people I was playing games with for a few months, one was a 3D modeler and one did music and one was a writer, and I was fucking around in Unity and Game Maker making prototypes, so I was like "hey why don't we make games just for fun maybe it'll grow into something bigger" and everyone was pretty positive about it except the "leader" of the clique was like "naw that's stupid I don't want to waste my time" and it killed the idea. Feel like ever since then if I have any creative endeavors it's gotta be by myself.
@arc I only installed 10 because it's Late 8 era (haswell CPU, etc.) and Steam still works on it.
Definitely, that's been me for the past 5 years. I only have the focused interests trying to chase the past and thinking that it'll attract like minded people at some point, and I'm sure if I keep at it it'll happen.
I hate "cliques" that end up bending over to the "leader" or the "guy with the deepest voice" because they are desperately in need of validation or an e-daddy.