@dommymommy well i didn't drink it for 18 years because i was raised mormon and they can't drink coffee, so i just kind of don't drink it at all. i'm not a huge fan of the taste though, i like artificial coffee flavor more. i do like the smell of coffee but the taste, not so much.

but yeah, 20g of sugar is definitely still a decent chunk, but it's certainly not anywhere near as bad as if i were to drink two regular sodas instead which would amount to like 90g+ :) but it also depends on how many calories you consume otherwise, and i actually have a relatively high calorie diet and a ridiculously fast metabolism so things aren't as bad for me as they could be, that's for sure. i'm only really drinking the stuff if i am at work too, so i'm actively doing stuff.

coffee typically has more caffeine in it too, and with hypomania episodes the more of that stuff i have in me the worse it'll be so i try to only drink caffeine if i need to, the less the better. i also get a little worried about seizures, from the caffeine itself to the effect it would have on my sleep. i'm sure i could find some coffee that had a relatively low amount of caffeine in it but i've got something going for me right now that works well enough so i don't really wanna fuck with it. like people telling me to go on keto kind of scares the shit out of me because if my diet changes in a way that my body doesn't like i could literally die.