I have decided that I need to move back to the city (not the one I moved here from, but A city).
I've tried making this whole middle of nowhere thing work, I tried to rationalize that the lower cost of living, lower taxes, and lighter traffic were pluses that outweighed the negatives, but this is just not me.
I am bored as hell, there's nowhere to go, I miss being able to walk everywhere, I miss my hipster record stores, I miss my overpriced coffee, I miss feeling there's always more to explore, I miss being able to just go to concerts without having to make travel plans, I miss the hustle and bustle of city life.
My job is in-office, but everyone I work with is on the other side of the state, so I for all intents and purposes get all the negatives of working from home with none of the benefits (or the "home" part). It's also way too easy and I'm bored all the time. I can *feel* my social skills regressing from not exercising them enough.
Plus I have no friends or family here, I have only really made one of the former (and they're thinking about moving), and I can just tell every person who I come in contact with can smell that I don't belong here and treats me as such.
I have concluded that I will die an urbanite by nature and nothing will ever change that no matter how hard I force it. Lease is up in four more months. Guess it's time to start looking.
re: Warning: Whiney
The local charm was lost very quickly too, basically everything I had in the city is just smaller, worse, further away, or some combination of the three.