I think I should remind (again) everyone from the "Para" community who views, likes and/or shares my content, I was not always this way.

In fact, I was quite a strong "anti", although this became more muted once I started watching loli porn and came to terms with my sexuality and my own life. I still was "in the closet" for a while, and then became a "morality police" sort of guy. Only now do I see how I was still wrong at all those stages.

There are people on F/Pedi and in other places who I attacked in the past, and I want to apologize to them but obviously I don't want to name them (for their safety, not for mine).

Of course, no apology on my part will be enough. I can't turn back time; I can't remove the pain I may have caused.

I guess this is a reason I let some people from these communities follow me but most not, and I rarely if ever follow people back.

The only thing I can say is that I try to be more level-headed now. I try not to be knee-jerk. I try to understand people. I'm trying to rekindle my empathetic side, although I still can get angry and go on the offensive against people (especially those who remind me of my past self).

I'm not asking people to forgive me. I'm just saying that I apologize.

In a strange sort of way, I think I deserve "punishment", but not in a conventional way. This is probably why I just post everything in public. It's just something that I have to do. My "punishment" is to be attacked by people who I would have considered "allies" only a few years ago. My "punishment" is to fight my demons out in the open.