I've been feeling pretty miserable lately. The older I get, the more I regret not transitioning. I tried convincing myself it was just a phase, or that I'd grow out of it, or that I could suppress it and control it, but I just can't deal with it anymore. I constantly feel like it's too late now, I've been telling myself it's too late for years, and it just keeps getting worse and worse.
Things are going so well in my life, otherwise. I used to try convincing myself it was just depression, that I was just depressed and convincing myself that my body's the problem, and once everything else got better it'd go away. But it never did. Everything else got better but that feeling was always there, no matter how good my life was. I hate this. I just want to get rid of these feelings. Why won't they just go away? Why can't I just be happy, even when everything's perfect? Why am I cursed like this?