@rats I wish hrt didn't make the dick soft or I'd use it

@Jazzy_Butts it seemed like you were verging on having a full on sissification fetish the other day

rats are you being ironic again today

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts the amount of ironic I'm being at any given moment varies wildly but I'm being genuine here

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts maybe I misremember

I slip in and out of characters a lot as a performance thing + entertaining / distracting myself

rats are you sober on a friday night come on have a little fun

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts I'm on amphetamines belted to a chair in a dark room while I post rn and I don't know when I'll get to leave. it's been a half hour so far

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts this is true btw I'm stuck in a dark airplane that landed ages ago waiting for the gate to open up I'm just having some fun here folks

@rats @Jazzy_Butts @fluffy hugs, im sorey i cursed you

im gonna sneak into the room

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts you're too late they're letting me leave now. ok I need to put u on a leash to take u through customs

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts do u gotta pee? we can try to find one of those little airport rooms that's like a smokers lounge but for dogs to pee in

you're just trying to do something degenerate and perverted aren't you

i'm outta here smell ya later rats

@fluffy @Jazzy_Butts yeah sorry I was starting to lose my shit cuz I was sitting there for half an hour. sorry if I misread the vibe

@rats @Jazzy_Butts 🐀

@Jazzy_Butts @rats use bica/testosterone gel later on

@Jazzy_Butts @rats im going to be spotty these days online so ill elaborate here for when you read this, bicalutamide as your antiandrogen barely affects your dick because it blocks absorption without affecting production (this causes funkiness with blood levels of T being relatively high in tests even while feminisation is happening but it's fine). dick will still be nice and hard.

low concentration testosterone cream/gel applied locally on the skin of your dick will prevent shrinking/help with dysfunction cause by e.

you can be a girl and keep your dick just fine don't listen to normativities! (some things still do change)

and that's it! i used to be on bica before my endos changed me to cypro because it was too scary for them or smth, but when i go on mono soon it won't really matter anymore

@Jazzy_Butts @rats and in any case you learn to decenter your dick in your sexuality, though admittedly everyone takes their own meaning from that. it still plays an important part for me, whereas it seems others are perfectly happy to forget it

the beauty of weird bodies

@tarperfume @rats I'm so fed up with doctors that I had to leave an office the other day because I was about to tell the receptionist to go fuck herself. And my mom is super terfy and lies about it. "Terf? What? Me?! Nooooo! I'm not a terf!"
Ok mom well what if I was trans?
*Mom makes a horrified facial expression like I just said I am inhabited by the spirit of Hitler.*
Thanks mom, totally not a terf, how could I make that mistake.

@Jazzy_Butts @rats i feel you. got an unsupportive mother and deal with dipshit doctors myself

it leaves you feeling powerless most waking moments. it's miserable. im sorry to that happened to you jazzy

just know that your mother can only make your life so miserable, as long as she doesn't, throw you out or the like. if that's a line she won't cross, it'll suck, but you can do this on your own, i promise

@tarperfume @rats She wont throw me out over that. She'd be very weird but wouldn't kick me out. I just don't want to be around her when I feel like she's ashamed of me or something or embarrassed or thinks I'm doing something wrong.

@Jazzy_Butts @rats i have seen the end result of the path she's forcing the both of you on, and it ends with you hurt but standing and her with a child who won't speak to her and refusing to understand it was fully within her power for things to be different

it's good to hear you're not in danger of homelessness if you decide to transition though