I don't talk to other people, I just stay in my home all day long. It's been like this for years. You guys are all I got.
@opal I'm scared to, I'm scared of random events, and I'm scared of groups of normies
Just go outside and breath in the fresh air for a bit
@prouddegenerate @opal Ok just went into my front yard to breathe, I got anxious and went back in.
and this is coming from me, the king of being anxious and panicking
@opal @prouddegenerate I have the irrational fear that if I'm not under cover, I am exposed and vulnerable to attack, and that's too risky for me. I know normal people aren't like this, I know I used to not be like this.
@tarperfume @opal @prouddegenerate It changed after my ex threatened me with inprisonment and abandonment after I confessed to him that I was very depressed and didn't want to live anymore, and that I wanted help talking about these feelings. He started screaming, said "I've LOST people!!!", and then told me to "Get the fuck out". I was blindsided. I was shattered. And then I was filled with hate and anger, and the sense that no matter who I meet they will betray me.
As tone deaf as this is, you need to learn to move past this somehow, you can't live your entire fucking life convinced everyone is out to get you
Suicide or prison is the end of that road
@prouddegenerate @opal @tarperfume I didn't even come out to him, he never knew, he was just mad that I would dare come to him for support.
