@Jazzy_Butts go outside

@opal I'm scared to, I'm scared of random events, and I'm scared of groups of normies

@Jazzy_Butts @opal you don't even have to talk to people

Just go outside and breath in the fresh air for a bit

@prouddegenerate @opal Ok just went into my front yard to breathe, I got anxious and went back in.

@Jazzy_Butts @opal you have some major anxiety then
and this is coming from me, the king of being anxious and panicking

@prouddegenerate @Jazzy_Butts i have anxiety as well but yeah going outside really helps me

@opal @prouddegenerate I have the irrational fear that if I'm not under cover, I am exposed and vulnerable to attack, and that's too risky for me. I know normal people aren't like this, I know I used to not be like this.

@Jazzy_Butts @opal @prouddegenerate can you remember when it changed? the why, if there's an identifiable one, would be important to think of

@tarperfume @opal @prouddegenerate It changed after my ex threatened me with inprisonment and abandonment after I confessed to him that I was very depressed and didn't want to live anymore, and that I wanted help talking about these feelings. He started screaming, said "I've LOST people!!!", and then told me to "Get the fuck out". I was blindsided. I was shattered. And then I was filled with hate and anger, and the sense that no matter who I meet they will betray me.

@Jazzy_Butts @opal @prouddegenerate of all ways people tend to make someone considering suicide about themselves this is one of the most egregious ones jesus christ

did you ever talk about it with anyone else after this? i imagine not, but i ask cause the response you might have gotten could be different, and that might restore some faith in you