I don't talk to other people, I just stay in my home all day long. It's been like this for years. You guys are all I got.
@opal I'm scared to, I'm scared of random events, and I'm scared of groups of normies
Just go outside and breath in the fresh air for a bit
@prouddegenerate @opal Ok just went into my front yard to breathe, I got anxious and went back in.
i would wait until night, say eleven or so, and go for a walk. pick a corner store near you or something, make the goal to go there, buy a snack/drink, and then go home while consuming it.
@bitterblossom @opal @prouddegenerate There's a place a mile away but I can't even ride my bike anymore because my body hurts from old broken bones and pain pills are viewed as bad here in nazi America, anything that gives goypigs relief is viewed as bad, since goypigs are supposed to suffer. I'm not going to go score pills on the street either because I don't want to get ripped off or arrested.
that'll numb the pain
@bitterblossom @opal @prouddegenerate I even got a card back when that was a thing to do, opioids help more and don't make me unable to focus. Pot is great for the mind and minor pain, but when shit gets real the poppy is king.
better to be in pain and miserable bitching than have that shit melt your brain and open you up as a target for the fbi to groom in their next false flag op.
Morphine is one of the most effective painkillers but also so addictive
the only working painkiller i had that wasn't problematic wasnt even a pain killer.
some muscle relaxant i got for busting my back worked real fucking good while until my scrip ran out.
@bitterblossom @opal @prouddegenerate Muscle relaxers make my mouth very dry, I would use them if not for that. It's intolerable because I already have throat problems, if I was in better condition I could probably stand it.
@bitterblossom @opal @prouddegenerate I am science minded not feels minded, so I am very strict with myself compared to normies, that's why even though I love opiates more than anything I never became addicted and I never became dependent and I never put my safety at risk to aquire them. I have skip days that I'm not allowed to miss when I have pills, I can do it, I can manage with this medicine in ways most can't, the docs just refuse to believe me. I've been dealing with this for 10 years so I'm time tested not just talking out my butt.
opioid maintenance is considered medically beneficial, and its literally just taking safer opioids to prevent fent laced bullshit
not doing od bait doses and setting rules for yourself are ways to keep yourself safe, and if it does get too crazy theres always ways to cut back
a few of my exes have been ex-addicts of opioids and navigating that seems fucking horrible. like one was on suboxone and it sure seemed like it was barely helping & just made the situation even more "tiger by the tail"
on the other hand kratom seems to actually genuinely help and not just be big pharma shit continuing to ride addicts for everything theyre worth
i dont think pharma maintenance is a bad thing at all, a steady and safe supply thats harder to abuse and available for life does a ton to help some people (and some will not be helped by maintenance meds too, but nothing works for everyone)
just read a lot of stories of it saving lives, but it makes sense it doesnt help some
the biggest issue is big pharma and medical costs in the usa
@cummies @opal @bitterblossom @prouddegenerate @rats The USA is a niggerstate because in canada I could buy Codeine over the counter without a prescription. My tolerance is weak, codeine would be the syrup of the gods to me.
@prouddegenerate @opal @bitterblossom @cummies @rats absolutely fucking not cough syrup in the states is not codeine
u might be thinking of lean's cough syrup which is a prescription codeine + promethazine combination thats wayyy too expensive.
dxm is one of the only things i found was actually substantially addictive, never tried codeine tho
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