@p @11112011 @laurel @coyote @Moon @Nanashi > Maybe things suck and we're supposed to be depressed that things suck.
the reason i went on meds was a very conscious decision with logic like
1. i feel like shit
2. there is a clear reason i feel like shit. parts of my brain chemistry probably amplify this, but it is unambiguously because every aspect of the world i am made to exist in causes me great distress.
3. i can think of many ways that my life could look like where i would be perfectly happy, productive, using my skills to improve the world without resorting to medication, but it does not seem like any of them are possible to realize from my position in the world
4. given that the world i exist in is horrible, how do i survive this world?
hence meds. i am fine with thinking about it in the way of "i lobotomized myself" because that seems true. i just get really confused that i don't think i've met any other people who consciously thought through it like this? i don't know how other people generally deal with how /fucking horrible things are/.