I wish I was less paranoid, I want to have fun like other people seem to be having, and nothing ever happens to THEM, I'm just so scared like a dumb scared little baby face retard
"Can't post my voice, someone will recognize. Can't post my face, someone will recognize. Can't post my noodz, someone will recognize (though I posted them before in kik groups and dms with people so it's not like they're not out there)." When in reality probably no one will recognize. And if they do, probably nothing will come of it, they will be too embarrassed to address it because they statistically won't be a psychopath. But what if? I don't even leave my house anymore because of what ifs. What if someone stabs me? What if I get run over? What if something bad happens at home while I'm away and I can't stop it? What if I have a panic attack in public and then american cops come and beat me to death because I won't stop crying 'please god, please god no, stop, please god, please stop, oh my god, please, oh god'"
I showed the person I trust most (I trust them 90+%) this, and explained to them that I felt like Hulk, and they had no idea what I was talking about, but they were patient and tried. I explained that it felt like I have no friends on the left or the right political wing, I feel hunted, my whole life I've felt hunted, even as a child I felt like I never fit in because I was bi, and an aam and an mam, and a zoo, as I aged my attraction to various aged persons and species did not change, and I started to notice the ignorant, and arrogant hate that was focused on people like me any time they were spoken about. They were called sick, WE were called sick, by slackjawed normie faggots who couldn't explain if their life depended on it WHY something was wrong without appealing to their own personal tastes. They seem to be worth less than animals, because at least animals won't attack and beat someone to death if some faggot shouts "pedo".
https://youtu.be/dyQpEoMFF3w
I didn't even like the hulk as a kid, I liked spider-man, only chuds liked hulk (or so I thought).
the more you defy them, the quieter they get.
And it's not like this is anybodys fault, it just is, I used to blame people, including myself, but now I'm just like, too tired. I don't even care about why things are the way they are, or maybe I do idk, I just want to feel, not paranoid and enraged.