kill kill kill it, no, can't kill it, keep it alive, need it, ugly doesn't matter, need it, what if, one day what if, need it, can't be without it, hurts, burns, can't think, can't trust, lock it up, have to set about controlling it again, but it's so much bigger now, so much
keep alove the lessons, keep alove the pain, but yet it must be compacted, compressed, put to sleep, so it doesn't interfere, but not discarded