I'm fairly sure this being my only window to the outside (this screen) is not a good thing? Maybe? But last time I went out there it was bad. Everyone was lying, or predating on other humans, I was...changed. I was told, until I believed, that I have no power, that I, am an observer. I was born and grew as a doer, in first grade some punk tried to punk me off my seat on the school buss, so I cracked him in the face with a dog chain. That's when they started fuckin with me. When they said, this one ain't a bitch faggot, he keeps goreing the other niggercattle, so they began the long arduous process of breaking me. At 9 they started with the forced druggings. That lasted until 15, and by then I was broken. All will gone, except for one desperate need, to remain unmolested, once the molestation stopped. I didn't know how broken I was for years, and years. I went blindly through life, thinking things would be good now that I had paid my dues, but I was wrong, the change that had occured within me had left me unable to function in this world, in the real world, not the world of faggots and paperwork and queers and bitches, but the real fucking world. It's all a scam, a sham, a fraud, don't believe them when they tell you that to belong, you have to give up your soul, never give up your soul, just shut down, but never give in, or they'll change you, and then you won't be you anymore. It's better to go non responsive than to entertain demons who are hypocrites. It's too late for me, my life was robbed. Don't trust the doctors, or the administrators, or anyone who is a smarmy faggot that chose a life of faggotry and scamming.