Part of the reason I've seen so much porn is because I had a theory that if I saw people fucking enough I would be able to draw hentai since people fucking would be a common object to me, like a door, or a chair, and so it would be easy...or that's what I thought, idk if I'm any better at drawing, but I'm way more in control of my mind now. I've plumbed the depths so to speak, lots, I know what's down there, I know who I am, and now I'm so desensitized to sex I can see nudity and not even get aroused, and I like that level of control. Porn didn't take away my ability to get a boner, it gave me control over it.