Me to myself: Never trust, trust is dangerous, always doubt, never feel safe, because you are never safe, as soon as you let your guard down you are no longer safe. Be on edge. Look, listen, wait, be patient and stoic, play your part, smile, but never let them in. It's too dangerous to let anyone in.
@bitterblossom how do I know they don't know it's a test, how do I know I'm not being fooled?
@opal The only way for me to trust the environment I'm in would be for it to change drastically, that change is beyond my small power
dont trust.
lock them out.
but
then you give them benefit of the doubt, and you let them in a little bit, under heavy observation. and you give them the chance to earn the trust. carefully.