I DON'T have to be hurt by my ex gaslighting me
I DON'T have to feel like there's something wrong with me for not being polyamorus
I DON'T have to feel worthless for living in a society that is antithetical to "goodness"
@icedquinn Yea but worse. He did a bunch of sex stuff with me (which I enjoyed) but he never told me he was in a relationship with someone else. When he did it was the next day and I kind of rolled with it but did NOT feel good...but he told me he was going to leave him for me. He was direct about that. This isn't me reading into things. He said that shit. Meanwhile he's dragging me to events and giving me lots of party favors and he's sitting down and having talks with me about how he wants me to be happy with other people (fuck other people) and so I DO and then he gets jealous, and possessive, and starts poisoning the well between me and whoever I'm fucking with at that moment. All in the back, all in secret. He kept a lot of secrets. Never ever was straight up, everything, EVERYTHING, was behind multiple layers of irony. And he had the audacity to say *I* was "too safe", when he's the one who refuses to take his mask off, ever. Everything is a joke, or a "story", he will never be honest. He is a broken person.
@icedquinn Put your dick away, I was grown for all this.
i'm not in to that.it would just explain some things and i've seen a lot of people with a long history of being abused end up in situations like this.
often desperate for whatever they can get and end up with malignant narcicists.
@icedquinn Anyone with low self esteem is at risk for that, I was raised to be a subservient christian, and so being a natural leader I was punished a lot, in severe ways that would last years, we're talking about multi year long punishments here.
@icedquinn Instead of "go to your room for the day" it was "go to the psych ward for 3 years" and "here take these pills for 4 years" and the pills gave me breasts I didn't want
damn.
