I've never talked about all the SAs my ex did against me...even to myself...I've been in denial.

Here's a list of things he did that are SA:

Sucked my dick without my consent (first time we met), he just started grabbing me and taking my pants off and I was frozen with fear so I didn't hit or shove him and that would have been the only way to stop him

Forced me (with subtle threats) to put my dick in his fat "husbear" abd fuck him

Forced me, while I was out of it from not sleeping for 24hrs and inebriated, to engage sexually with a stranger so we could have a place to sleep for the night.

Tried forcing his cock inside me even after I told him no, he only stopped when I started crying and acted like I was the one treating him badly.

I'm sure there's more but I don't want to think about it right now. I hope everyone is having a nice day, or evening, wherever they are. I don't want fake sympathy. This is just what happened to me at one point in my life, and I haven't talked about it until now, not even with myself really.