Ok time to mindfuck myself into believing I have a romantic partner in the room with me so I can calm down enough to sleep. They're in my arms, we're cuddling, they smell nice, they pat my head and say they can sense my anxiety, and that I'm ok and they love me, and suddenly I feel love is possible, it's not some lie, I can be loved! I feel at home and whole, I feel loved. I hug them tighter, more meaningfully, for a moment, and I tell them "Thankyou" and they start rocking me to sleep