I remember when me and my complicated relationship twink friend would watch gore out of curiosity. One day he was like "I'm not really into gore anymore" and I was like "well neither am I but i can't look away". I could tell he was uncomfortable and not just bored by it, which makes sense, but I still didn't get why he couldn't power through it by force of will like I did. I would shake and almost puke sometimes. Gore still gives me fight or flight feelings, I rarely watch it now, but I wanted to see if theync was still a thing and it was, watched a couple videos for old times, reminded me of how the world can be, made me feel nice about my own life.