I am on the path to regaining my calm. Before I was damaged I wasn't so twitchy. I could relax, I could look like a normal person. I had qts smiling at me, and asking about me, even though I didn't have the confidence to seal the deal. Except that one night, I met her, and I don't know why but I was up front with her, she immediately threatened to punch me in the face, she was tiny, and a punch from her wouldn't hurt much, so I laughed and pretty much said she could if she wanted to because it wouldn't hurt me. I said look, I like you, I hope we can hang out some time, you know? And then left her alone. A few days later we were together. The longer we were together, the more in love I felt. The months went by, a year, but then she got gangraped, she changed immediately after but didn't tell me. I found out a year or two later, I coaxed it out of her, and while I assumed she had just cheated on me, the more she told her story the more it sounded like she was taken to a crack house by niggers and gang raped. So finally I ask her, so was all of this your idea? You were like "I'm going to suck 50 nigger dicks" "hey guys get those nigger dicks out imma suck em" and that's when reality hit her, she, in her womans mind, literally told herself she wasn't raped and it was just "fun" until I explained to her that she was pressured, none of it was her idea, she was bribed, she was drugged, and she was gang raped. She kind of broke down and was like staring off into space. Our relationship wasn't the same, it couldn't be, I felt like the rape was my fault, she wanted me to pick her up from a treatment facility she HAD to be in, she only had a month left and then she'd be free...but I said no, that's a bad idea, don't break out just finish your month. But she did break out. And she got to the city with her little whore friend (I just know the little skank friend was the one who initiated all this shit) and that's where she met a filthy fucking spic bitch who whored the two of them out to niggers on the dl and these stupid white cunts didn't even know it. They thought it was just "a party", "hanging out" like no bitch your dumb white ass loved on a nigger who probably gave you AIDS you stupid bitch. You looked like a little dyke you stupid cunt you know niggers like to rape dyke pussy the fuck is wrong with you hanging out with those people.