Ok guys another confession time.
This is gonna be a hard one, a really hard one, this is rough, it feels like a betrayal by me...the truth is, I fapped to bbc porn recently, it shook my world, I haven't known how to deal with it... I've fapped to it before yea sure, but that was by accident, it was incidental, this time? I searched it out. I LOOKED for the bbc porn........and the thoughts....the thoughts in my head?? The thoughts of submitting to the bbc...they made me sick.....but they made me cum........I have been fantasizing about having stables of bbc niggers in fine luxury fucking my ass and letting me fuck their black asses while their bbcs flopped everywhere and then they would all fuck my wife and cum in her while I fucked and sucked their asses.

I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like some lovecraftian shit, some entity has infected my mind with BBCs, I even have been imagining what the bbcs must have been like that raped my gf, I imagine sucking them and sucking the cum out of her raped pussy while they fucked me and I imagine they all have AIDS too...do I need therapy? I'm confident I can handle this on my own, some guilty part of me must feel as though it needs to be humiliated by bbc buck niggers, and so what I have to do is build myself up so I no longer feel deserving of such a deranged fate... perhaps?