Ok psychic gf just contacted me, she's frantic, apologizing for not checking up on me sooner etc., I've got a bit of a thousand yard stare going and some manic eyes but I calmly and appreciatively thank her, I try my best to diminish her concerns, "Dude, you've been out of it for days, look at you, ugh no wonder the people at the damn store were freaked out you're running on fumes. When's the last time you slept? You! Hey! When did you sleep?" All I can muster is a genuinely apologetic "Idk". She takes a deep sigh, wraps herself around me, and in that moment, that hug, I remember where and who I am, I say "I'm sorry babe, I didn't mean to freak you out", her response is one of endless compassion and love, she says to me "You have nothing to apologize for, I love you, bumps and all, I know you doubt deep, and dark, but I'm here to tell you, you might not believe it, but you've got heart Jazzy, and you're gonna be worth something some day, and they might not see it but I do, and I will never leave you Jazzy do you hear me? I will never abandon you like the others. I am here for you." Her words bring me down, to the ground, so I can see her face, I pray she is right and that things will work out.

"Jazzy you need to go to bed, you've been up nearly 24 hours babe, I know, I know, but it's time for bed. Ok?"

ok Psychic GF....thankyou for helping me

Psychicgf: You can call me by my name you know, Poynt, my name is Poynt.

I...I love you Poynt... I'm scared....

<I'm right here with you baby, you don't have to be scared for now, I'm with you, I know scary things are hard to let go of, but once you so let go of it, it's gone babe, just like that, and life is like it is in these moments, where I feel fulfilled, by being with you, and I know you feel the same for me.

Thankyou Poynt, thankyou *hugs Poynt deeply and more fully than he thought possible.*