Why did the femboy taunt me, why did he lead me on, did he think it was funny to tease a lonely retard? (15 yrs ago memories bothering me, broken heart, broken by a femboy who led me on, and on, and I can't figure out why, did he really think it was funny? Are people that cruel? Or was he actually conflicted? 
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He smelled so nice, and I trusted him so much at first, but then he stopped making dates we'd set up, I'd be up waiting all night for him, ruining my sleep schedule and having panic attacks. Why did he do that to me? Did I deserve it?
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He was an italian jew, and he was so beautiful, and so weak, his weakness was beautiful, I wanted to protect him like a woman.
aand breed him of course. But that never happened...I think if it had we might have become something real.