https://youtu.be/N81YTs_7NNQ
IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW
THE DEVIL IS ON MY SIDE
HE IS GODS EMISSARY
MY SUFFERING IS HOLY, IT'S FOR MY BENEFIT!
IF ONLY THE BODY WASN'T HOLY I COULD MUTILATE MYSELF FOR MORE SANCTITY!!!
BUT ALAS, I MUST WAIT FOR GOD TO DETERMINE WHEN I FEEL SUFFERING :D
https://youtu.be/2dT7eYskfEQ
ok I'm looking again- OH MY GOD, IT WAS ME, IT WAS ME WHO PUT A CURSE ON ME HOLY SHIT OH FUCK